Fighting Labor Fears & Anxieties

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The closer I get to my due date, the more overwhelmed I feel. There is a plethora of feelings that overcome me, from joy to fear, excitement to anxiety. I know this is normal, but I don’t want to wait in fear or stress. I want to wait in peace. I’ve been seeking encouragement in prayer and scripture. Last night before bed, I made note-cards of 14 verses to pray through the fear of labor and delivery. I told Mark that I wanted them to be my “focal point”, so he will read them to me when I have contractions. SiIMG_20150209_145407multaneously, I will work on my J-Breathing (my favorite breathing technique that isn’t hard for me to remember). I know no one says it’s going to be easy, in fact everyone says it’s painful, but I will choose to focus on things above. My motto will be the same as the one I had through pledging my sorority: Mind over matter. I know my God is with me, and the birth of baby Carter is in His hands. I read this quote the other day, “Faith and fear cannot dwell in the same place. So let Him in to push fear out!”

Also, found this awesome prayer for labor and delivery. Thought I’d share it and maybe someone else can find encouragement in it, as well.

Dear Heavenly Father,

You have chosen this day as the day my baby will be born. Thank you for bringing me to this point in time and for your perfect plan for the hours ahead.

Lord, I praise you for loving me and my baby. Each moment ahead of us is being cradled in Your good hands. May I not forget that.

Father, help me to not be anxious. Remove from me a heart of fear and replace it with Your peace that passes all understanding! Hold my hand and lead me.

Please allow me to have endurance that comes from you, and keep me safe. Father, watch over my baby and allow him/her to be born under the best of circumstances!

May Your will be done, Lord. Give me a sense of calm and purpose as I go through labor and delivery.

I know, Lord, that physical pain can overwhelm me, but Lord, help me to cling to You and look forward to the joy ahead when I see my little baby for the first time.

Give skill and wisdom to the doctors, nurses, and staff that will be taking care of me today, Lord. Allow them to be kind and helpful and enable me and my family members to bless them too.

Jesus, thank you for this new life that you have knit together in my womb so perfectly. Whatever happens, Lord, I know that we are all fearfully and wonderfully made. May I feel your presence today, Father, in new and excellent ways. I know that You never leave me or forsake me.

Father, I give this baby to You. May my son/daughter grow up to follow You all the days of his/her life and guide me with wisdom as his/her mother from this first moment on.

In Jesus Name I Pray,
AMEN!

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One. More. Week.

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I can’t believe it. 9 months have passed. Unreal. This last month is dragging!

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Husband & I after our appointment, this week. 2nd to last one! Stopped for smoothies on the way home. 🙂

We have been on weekly OB appointments now, and today we went more in depth over our birth plan. I like our doctor very much, in that she explains things well and always answers our questions. What I really love is that she is someone who also loves to travel and dine out on occasion with her kid. She has provided great advice on both those topics. Additionally, she really respects labor and delivery as a very special time for the parents. I couldn’t agree more. She always stresses that it is great bonding for mom, dad, and baby, and we should see visitors only when ready. I definitely don’t want anyone other than my husband and the medical staff in that delivery room. And our hospital gives parents that first hour after delivery, for the parents to just be with the baby, and hopefully allow mommy to nurse. I think that’s awesome! After our appointment, I am confident she knows our birth plan well and we are on the same page.

Embarrassing Unknown Fact: When I’m in pain, I make crazy sounds and say some of the weirdest things. Ex. “Whoa Nelly”, “Ouchie wawa”, “Ho ho ho”, “Mommy” (and variations of this), “Mother of pearl”, “Pikachu”, “Oooh-ma-ha” (Yes, that would be Omaha). Those are just some of the common ones. Needless to say, I’m thinking the delivery room is going to be mortifying for me and comedic for the medical staff. “You know they’re going to think you’re insane,” says Mark. Yep, I know.

Question: When do you think would be the WORST TIME for your water to break?
This is something I’ve been asking myself almost daily. I think driving in the car would be the worst. Or while out shopping like at the mall or grocery store would suck. Then I think, where would it be ideal for my water to break? Obviously at home with my husband, but definitely not on our new laminate flooring or microsuede couches. The shower might not be good either, because it could be confusing. I might just think it’s the shower water. This is the mind of a worrier and someone with OCD. I don’t want to be God, but man…sometimes I wish I knew the plan. Ahh, the complexities and challenges of faith.

Current craving: Sonic’s ice. I’m totally serious. I had Mark go out and purchase a Route 44 cup of it. I had some of it already, and I’m saving the rest for when the real contractions come.